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I don’t suffer from anxiety–at least not in a debilitating way. I’ve never had a panic attack. But I watched Scott have one in 1986. We (he, James, and I) were sharing an apartment–the Silver Bullet–in SLC. He had smoked … Continue reading →

From the OED: Colleague: One who is associated with another (or others) in office, or special employment; strictly, said of those who stand in the same relationship to their electors, or to the office which they jointly discharge. (Not applied … Continue reading →

I don’t know and can’t possibly imagine how it feels to lose both of your children. Both, taken in an instant, while the 16-year old was driving. The 12-year old riding along with his sister. On spring break, along the … Continue reading →

Saw Eric Samuelen’s “3” with Katy last night. Quite thought-provoking–especially “Community Standard,” which investigates whether or not pornography violates the community’s standards or accurately represents what the community deems acceptable if kept hidden. This is a cool idea: 26-minute memoir … Continue reading →

Today is the one-year anniversary of my divorce becoming final. I wondered how I would feel about this day…turns out I’m sad. And sensitive and vulnerable and confused and agitated and distracted. This morning I told myself to be gentle … Continue reading →

Looking back on my posts, I seem to be in a “once a month” pattern. Dismal. But I’ve decided to forgive myself for not writing as much I’d like. I’m also forgiving myself for not reading as much as I’d … Continue reading →

It’s snowing. A lovely day for staying inside, cleaning the house, wrapping presents, and generally preparing for Christmas. I’ve given myself the gift of hanging out at home this morning and avoiding the snowy roads. Yet I’m strangely agitated. Is … Continue reading →

On my previous sabbatical (Fall 2008), I researched women’s writing and read letters that my mother (Harriett Ann McDonough Gesteland) wrote to her mother-in-law (Berniece Jeanette Elver Gesteland) from 1956 to 1990. My goal was to trace the development of … Continue reading →

My higher power certainly wants me to learn something, though I’m still not sure what it is. I thought the atmosphere at work and the situation as assistant chair couldn’t get much worse, but it has. After the department meeting … Continue reading →

I really wanted to have a mellow birthday. After the emotional turmoil of the last year, I thought I was due for a calm, peaceful celebration of another year in my already-long life. But a crisis erupted at work, and … Continue reading →