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I was reading about weight gain during menopause and happened upon this phrase, “the menopause.” The article stopped me. Not “menopause” but “the menopause.” Not “war” but “the war.” Not “life change” but “the life change.” Not “cancer” but “the … Continue reading →

5/24/16 journal entry Three weeks since we took Bubba to the Animal ER and paid $$$ to have him euthanized. I have his picture everywhere: on my phone’s lock-screen, as my iPad’s wallpaper, in my office, on my Facebook page. … Continue reading →

Friday the 14th FB post: This is Henry, who we adopted at the Ogden Farmers’ market 13 years ago on July 17, 2004. Jake, 6 years old at the time, picked his name. It’s been an incredible 13 years with … Continue reading →

Henry now has 7: Tramadol – 150 mg 3 times/day (narcotic for pain) Gabapentin – 300 mg 3 times/day (anti-convulsant for nerve pain) Novox – 50 mg 2 times/day (NSAID for pain) Metronidazole – 250 mg 2 times/day (antibiotic for … Continue reading →

It begins in my lower back, draws up my spine, blasts out through the pores in my neck. I sweat and steam pours. While I’m flashing I cannot concentrate. How do the women playing Vivaldi play their violins? Can they … Continue reading →

Idiopathic or “Old Dog” Vestibular Disease 9 days out, Henry still wobbles, still tilts his head, and still doesn’t eat much I dreamed of Henry the other night… Almost a year since we lost Bubba, and I’m not ready to … Continue reading →

Normal, norm, normalize Adjective: conforming to a standard; usual, typical, or expected. Noun: the usual, average, or typical state or condition. Verb: bring or return to a normal condition or state. In these post-presidential days I wonder how quickly we can become normalized … Continue reading →

I’ve forgotten how to do this–how to wake up in the morning and write instead of rushing off to work, instead of falling back to sleep on the couch, instead of reading endless posts on social media about the demise … Continue reading →

Not necessarily well-lit, but certainly tidy and empty of my son. We moved Jake to the Chapel Glen dorms on August 18th, move-in day at the U of U. He sorted his clothes–giving some away and laundering the rest–dusted and … Continue reading →